It has finally happened. I've been able to talk about my dogs crossing without tears. I could say I'm not sure how to feel about this but honestly, I am a bit relieved. Yes, relieved because I am one step closer to being ready to have a new dog come into my life. I am a dog person and frankly lost without a sweet pup in my house. This is my first dogless period, that will last more than nine months(I think), in 15 years.
Sure there are things I don't have to worry about like baths, dog food, medicine, vet visits but there also isn't a pup to reach over and pet. I don't have anyone to greet me as I come home. Let me assure you, it's those mindless every day things that hurt the most. Then there is my daughter and her need for a dog. If you think I am lonely, there isn't a day that goes by that the longing for Drake isn't on display. She talks of him lovingly and often. I think her willingness to talk about Drake has helped the healing along. Both kids stop just about every dog owner they can to see if they can love the dog.
I've refrained from even entertaining the idea of a new dog. We still need time to heal and get accustomed to not having one. I don't want the decision to get a new dog come from a need to just have a dog in my house. I want it to come from being at the right time and place for it. I also don't want to introduce a dog to our lifestyle as it is. We were fortunate that our dogs were good at travel but a new dog might not be. If we got a dog that wasn't good at travel, it would stress everyone out trying to drag them along.
So for now, I guess I am still adjusting to a dogless life but the healing has begun.